Now before I go back to my usual drawing routine I need to speak out some certain things that some of you are aware of mostly about what happened recently mainly the argument and a recent critique and I feel like need to speak my mind here, before anything else happens
About the argument that had caused me to have a meltdown, well to be clear it wasn't from the critique from one of my pages and I didn't get into an argument with anyone, but two people who very close to me that where in this argument against each other and I was just in the middle of it. I really hate to see those i really care about in a fight so viciously that just can't stand there and stay the hell out of it, these two people mean so much to me, that I don't want anything bad to happen, but seeing such a fight it's almost like a kid watching her parents having such a horrible fight to the point it nearly got violent. Plus the fight happened at the wrong moment when I need both of their support when I was really stressing out. So that one thing cleared up.
Now about the recent critique I got and from the response it's been getting, a lot have been saying that I'm being lazy with my work lately, or that being an idiot of ignoring this critique, being immature about it and that I'll never learn about it. Well let me tell something to you and this the only time I'm gonna say this, just because I didn't agree with Critique doesn't mean I won't consider it at all! Look I do improve every now and than, but not right away! I really hate to rush it's been like that as long as I can remember, and here on DA is one of the places I don't need to rush. And just because I got a popular status doesn't mean I'm gonna keep on improving that fast, I do it at my own pace, in fact I didn't join DA cause of that, I joined because I just wanted to have fun and met new friends. And reason why I hid the critique on one my pages is because of two things: 1. I don't want to be stressing about the critique and rushing every time I see the critique on that page and 2. When other people see the disagreement we had there's was gonna be a lot of arguing to the point that could to huge out burst of helL from a lot of people, and I didn't want that, so I hid it from anymore damage. And besides when I do improve on my artwork it takes a lot of time and I need money for updates for the programs I use but lately I'm trying to save money and I don't have enough and I don't have lot of time as I use to have in the real world before I went to college: Like chores, watching my kid brother, trying to appeal for a job, trying to make money, learning to do taxes (so boring and bit confusing but I guess it's important), potty training our new dog, cook dinner every once in awhile and I still need to get my driver's license. So as you can see cause of those setback in real life I'm unable to improve a lot on my artwork which is why I'm stuck with the current style I use. And if this explanation still doesn't change your minds about me not taking the critique, if it makes you happy I manage to makes some improvements with Nightshade's face with the little time that I had. Im sorry if I sound harsh or if it looks like I'm venting, but every since that critique, some people maybe even a lot, may see me wrongly, and I really wanted to speak up for my choice here. I should also point out that I may have been rash about critique only because I've never been critique before and I wasn't sure how to react.
One last thing before I end this journal: do you guys agree with my choice? Or do you think I'm being an idiot too? I really wanna know
Till next, PandaFilms Out (and getting ready to see JW)
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